So...
Congratulate me, i've finished this year in university without any trouble and without any bad marks!
I'm free as a bird until september (:

I'm not uploading much again since I've recently become more and more critical about my own work. I browse my favourites and feel that I am just not the same level. And I start thinking that maybe I'm just not talanted? I've been into photography for many years now, I do see some improvement but still find myself boring and amateur.
The worst part is that I want to be both: photographer and model. Taking selfportraits is really hard, it's not the same as usual photography in my opinion. And I don't really have any, you know, typical girlfriends to hang out with everyday and practice on (as I see many photographers do).

I might be going to Paris for a few days, maybe I'll find some inspiration there.
If you have any advice on some places to visit (maybe night clubs?), I'd appreciate it very very very much.

here's a few of my favourites again to make this entry less boring:







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Hello, boys and girls.
I've been very naughty.

This is how I celebrated my Birthday on April 24th.




<sub>a proper update is coming soon.

p.s.: if you have any critisism on my art, please, do tell me!</sub>

So...
I haven't updated in a while, but I guess I'm still in a creative/writer's block, I think it's simply always with me (the block), it just disappears sometimes for a few hours.

I don't have any interesting news to be honest.
I went to France which could have been awesome if I went by myself, but I didn't. It's a wonderful place though - with all the crazy weather conditions nowadays there's still snow there since it's more than 2000 meters above sea level.
The university it so-so, I just learned to deal with it.
I practically haven't been socializing with anybody recently so I have no one to take pictures of. That makes me a saaaad panda.
I also became concerned with my photography level. I don't think I suck, but I think I should really try to be better. Which is pretty hard when you mostly take selfportraits in a small room with very little free space.
I see some pictures that are completely crap (imho) in the "most popular photography" category, so I guess maybe I should whore myself out in some communities or smth? Because I feel I'm rather boring. Just many many pictures, and nothing special. And seriously - I don't think I'll change my view on that before I get a DD or at least be featured somewhere. Yes, that’s my goal. I said it.

I also would like you to leave some love in ~gosh87's gallery, he took some sweet pictures of me last fall.



And I decided to try sharing some of my favourites with you,
I wouldn't call it a "feature", just some photographs I find beautiful.





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think I should always copy-paste the same lame excuse about not posting for a long time

I think I'll start with a rant one more time.
You know, dear readers and friends.
I've never ever said that americans are stupid, the english are ugly, the french are gay, the germans are all nazis and.... see, i'm even out of stereotypes! i don't even know enough of them because i think they are ridiculous.
But still I keep getting idiotic question about Russia. "I didn't know people speak English in Moscow", "Is it -30C there?', "Is it true that if I come to Russia I'll get robbed?" and etc.
At first I wanted to write about how i would like to scream some defending things in their faces, but now that I think about it.... just know, my 'dears'. You are pathetic and miserable.
(I was talking, of course, only about those people who ask those kind of questions. People who encquired about my conutry because they want to visit do no count also)
So.
I don't really have any interesting news to tell you..
The University has been.... so-so. I guess I just have pretty high standards.
I completely lost contact with my ex-friends, haven't made any new ones yet.
No plans for the New Year so far (read: Christmas. in Russia we celebrate the New Year like most of you celebrate Christmas, it's a tradition since the times religion was banned during the USSR).
Me and by man have celebrated 1 year together last month. That's pretty sweet, because I've been in a lot of stress lately, but he tries to help me even when I'm screaming at him or behaving like a hysteric bitch (that happens sometimes, i need to see a doctor).
I am now having some exams so I hope they are the reason I'm not going out at all, not the fact that I'm becoming a looser.
Well, I guess that's gonna be me my goal for 2008: get a better life
Yeah, and taking more pictures

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I have some spare time, so I think I'll update.

Things have been going mostly well lately.
Out trip to Portugal was fantastic, I love this country so much, the climate is simply awesome.
Because of the lack of time I didn't do two version of the pictures (for blog and bigger ones for here), so if you are interested in the pictures please check them out here [link] (part 1) [link] (part 2).

My new university is great. Good location, very nice old building with a classis university atmosphere and people and teachers are not so smug as in my pervious one.
Although it's hard to study with those who have just graduated from high school, because they are so irresponsible and so childish sometimes. Haven't met anyone interesting yet (we do have interesting people, i just never got to knowing any fo them), but that's ok, because this time I do to university to study and I have my personal life separately.

In bad news I have been feeling no so good lately, my health problems are starting to show themselves more and more often. Like today. I'm writing this because I just couldn't go to the uni, I felt too sick. No need to worry now (at least I hope so), I'm gonna visit a doctor really soon.

Well, what else can I say.
It's autumn and I feel good, because I feel like my soul is alive and I feel like I reborn every autumn.
I'm sitting at home most of my time and suffer a artist's block though, but I hope some of my friends will help me get out of this and I think that when the leaves will become yellow, I'll just have to start at least going to walks with my camera.

Sorry for not being interesting.

With hugs, Marie.

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